A Heavenly Kind of Love by Ostrow Lexi

Author:Ostrow, Lexi
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Colliding Worlds Press
Published: 2018-07-12T16:00:00+00:00

Fifteen

Changes swirled about inside of her. It was strange to think that her body had just undergone an intensive round of medical treatment since all she’d done was sit still, but impossible to ignore. Queasiness continued to swirl in her stomach, despite the steroids dispensed to supposedly make it stop. A slight tremor also vibrated in her legs and arms; she couldn’t see it when she looked down, but it was there. Like tiny vibrations moving throughout her body. Tears lined her eyes. Not from sadness, but discomfort. Cassandra had never had to sit still with a needle in her arm for three hours before. Never mind the paralyzing way fear locked up her muscles until they ached.

“How are you feeling?” Lucy, the nurse, checked back in with her for the second time in the last few hours.

“Drained and uncomfortable.” She didn’t want to complain about the nausea, it didn’t seem important since they’d already tried to help it.

A smile curved the woman’s mouth. “Well, I have some good news.” She leaned down and gently put her hand over the IV, tugging out the end attached to the bags. “You’ve completed your first round of chemo.”

The words echoed in Cassandra’s mind, but she couldn’t hold on to them. Couldn’t grasp them in her hands and suddenly make them mean something to her.

“Did I do well?”

That earned her a chuckle. “You did wonderfully. Many people don’t do well sitting still. I overheard you talking and reading.” As she spoke, her hands busied with unhooking the IV and folding the tubing as she spoke. “If you can maintain a calm like the one you had today, you’ll do fine. Mind over matter is important in things like this. Don’t forget that.” “Is there anything else?” Cassandra felt a fog drift over mind, erasing anything thoughts as the numbness took over. Even though she knew the IV was missing, she didn’t feel as if the weight of the bag was gone. She should be overjoyed to be getting on with the treatment, but the sloshing liquid in her stomach made her wish she would just hurry up and get sick already.

“You’re free to go. I know it was already mentioned, but do not be alarmed when you see changes. Focus on the positive, and remember, chemo isn’t forever. It’s just one piece of getting your life back.”

Yes, getting it back. Three more sessions. Three more times, and then maybe it’ll be gone. Cassandra pushed off the reclining chair, and the room spun like the Tilt-a-Wheel at carnivals, dropping her back into the seat.

“Please take a moment if you’re dizzy.”

Swallowing, she ignored the putrid taste of bile rising in her throat. “No, I’ll be fine. I’m going to be stronger than this. I’ll be all right.” The second time, she said for herself.

Jaw clenched, Cassandra pushed upright again, squeezing her muscles to keep from tipping over. Even though it hurt like hell.

“I can help guide if you like.” Concern tinged Lucy’s voice.

“I think I’d like that.

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